Autumn blossom  
-Unfortunately- I have a lot to tell – the last weeks, study days and the romantic autumn time have brought me too much joy to write about. I enjoyed the golden days, sometimes foggy, sometimes in bright sunlight in front of dark clouds. I listened the sound of the trees shaking in the wind. Each leaf that falls from a tree standing in red, yellow or light green colours made me so excited and aware that time is changing and with it the things I used to know, all around me and myself. And I am not afraid about it as I used to be.

I really try to float or just pass by like a leaf which the stormy wind catches and turns in circles. But I am not lost cause I am part of a strength without waiting or producing it in myself, everything seems to work well, study, family and friends -business-. But how can I describe this nice little moments …Anyway I decided to share my feelings and thoughts with you on this blog and so I continue to practice writing down what comes into my mind and what lays behind me and in front of me on my desktop (soon I will show some pictures, sketches)…

…when I think about this autumn I have to say its one of my favourites at all. Why? Its hard to say simply in two phrases and without being cheesy. I just feel life and time changing when I watch the nature changing around me every day. I am happy to have this valuable moments to make a break within the day and just watch how things going.

After my long time in Jordan I am back to university and the rhythm and inspirations I have collected in the Near East (like the Germans call the Middle East) and the rhythm and inspirations of studying are going well together.

I am open for things which come and are offered and I really enjoy my last year at university more than ever before. So much interesting lessons about philosophy, system theory, film and design are open for me to join.

Finally after all these semesters we have the luck to have a smart famous German illustrator at our university, Jutta Bauer, who likes to sit outside in this season spectacle and watch the people in their surroundings as if you would sit in a theatre and watch the stage. She and our group of illustrators just take some short shots of life and try to find out stories and meanings in small everyday issues. Therefor we sit wherever we find a bench, for example at the Ilm Park (named after the small river which shares the place with alleys, trees, meadows, sculptures and walkers. Or if the weather turns, the humid and musty air fills your noise, some minutes before rain comes we hide inside a café. But anyway we are well equipped with pins and papers.

Through this practice of fixing moments you have to go out of the stream of life and watch it from a point outside. Although you never be outside you can try to focus on some things. Thats what I like about this time: Never before I was able to realise the changing colours and habits so much like now. After being away from used surroundings I can say I got the chance to discover two countries at once, my guest land Jordan and my homeland. 
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